Posted by: incywincy | February 17, 2006

???离

There was once a girl, who liked to walk. Walk in the rain, walk in the dark of the night. Sure, she was scared, but she had a friend walking with her, so she liked it just like that. Her friend, a boy, hated to walk. He was a cyclist. He thought walking was an inefficient way of travelling. But he still walked with her anyway. They walked and walked and walked. They talked and they walked some more. Every night.

One day, the girl realised that she was getting too dependent on him.

She would wait for him to ask her out for meals before she would even eat anything. She would wait for him to remind her to take her medicine. She would wake up in the mornings and expect to see MSN messages or SMSes from him. She would run to him with every small problem that she had, because sharing it with him made the load so much more lighter. She would talk to him on the phone everyday just because she needed to. She would feel uneasy unless she saw him every evening. She would smile when he was around, because he made her smile. She would cry when he was around, because it was so easy to just let it all out when he was there.

They ate together, they studied together, they worked together, they played the piano together, they joked together, they laughed together, they ate ice cream together, they walked together, they sat in silence together, they cried together, they played Chuzzle together, they went the playground together, they looked at the stars together, they did everything together.

But the girl couldn’t do that anymore, because she hated being dependent on boys.

All her past hurt, past experiences told her not to trust anyone and be dependent on anyone anymore. She was once dependent on a boy who lied to her, hurt her, broke her, and crushed her. Then the boy left her. So she doesn’t want to wait for this cyclist boy to leave her when he found a new friend. So she wants to leave first. This way, she can protect herself from being hurt when he really leaves her.

But it’s difficult leaving a friend. But she has to. Because she cannot get hurt again.


Responses

  1. So you are gonna spend all your life on your own unhesitatingly? If not, you might MISS, I suppose, this MR. RIGHT.

  2. teared twice when writing my article, teared once when looking for the song, teared once when reading my article, and cried when listening to 关怀方?.

    and now reading this i’m tearing again.

    never let out so much tear in 1 day before (untill i feel thirsty now), heh. and the last time i cried would be 7-8 years ago.

    dare not think into this issue again, once i think about it, tears will just come out.

    silly girl, i won’t dump you because i find another girl, friends dun leave each other easily.

    silly girl, please take your medicine, or you’ll never recover from coughing.

    silly girl, please dun believe in guys so easily, coz they hurt you so much, and i’m one of them.

    silly girl, please let go the past, it should be stored somewhere deep in the harddisk, not in the ram, which affects your current life so much.

    silly girl, please be happy, for yourself, for yourfriends and for your family.

    silly girl, i shall stop calling you silly coz my tears are coming out again you silly…

    if i’m ever going back to heaven this will be my last and most unsuccessuly ‘mission’.

  3. and everything you wrote in is past tense, yah noticed.

  4. WHAT THE CAP IS CAPPING ON IN THIS COMMENT CAP!?!

    DON’T BE SILLY. BE HAPPY. CAPPY.

    WHAT DO YOU THINK IS RIGHT? WHAT WOULD MAKE YOU HAPPY? DON’T LIVE IN THE PAST. IT’S A CAPPING PAST. CAP ABOUT IT. OTHER BOYS ARE OTHER BOYS. THEY ARE DIFFERENT. CANNOT CAPPARE.

    WOULD YOU STOP EATING YOUR FAVOURITE FOOD JUST BECAUSE ONE DAY YOU HAD A BAD ONE AT SOME BAD RESTAURANT AND IT MADE YOU SICK? MAYBE YOU WOULD FOR A BIT BUT IT’S STILL YOUR FAVOURITE FOOD RITE? I PERSONALLY WOULD SLOWLY FACE IT AGAIN.

    LATE.

  5. 🙂 you know it’ll all be okay soon.. don’t think too much into things.. everything’s not as bad as what you think you know.. real friends don’t dump each other when they have new friends.. and there’re real people who’re true to you around you.. so don’t think everyone’s gonna leave you.. coz the true ones will stay forever.. be happy!!

  6. YOU NEED A FRIGGING PENSIEVE.

  7. be happy girl 🙂


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